Crap. We are here. This is the week; the milestone; 12 weeks. I spent the previous weekend in Wellington (New Zealand) for a friends wedding. As all my family are based in Wellington and my closest friends were going to be at this wedding, it was the perfect opportunity to let them know - this [...]
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My Not Pregnancy – Part 7
Back to the real world and here we are on night shifts. It's week 11 and the nausea has been getting better, surely I can get my act together and start eating healthy now. As you might have noticed I've been living off pies, sausage rolls and juice so I really haven't been getting my [...]
Lockdown Reflections
During the COVID-19 alert level 4 and 3 lockdown I have felt feelings of purposelessness and a lack of fulfilment I learnt how to manage my emotions by myself, and also how, sometimes, unable I am to manage them by myself too I came to realise who I can trust and how many people I [...]
My Not Pregnancy – Part 6
I'm Samoa this week for a family reunion. I definitely don't have my summer-bod up to date. I like to blame the life growing inside my belly, but unfortunately that life is only 10 weeks and the size of a kumquat as per parents.com so probably can't be to blame for all the abdominal softness [...]
My Not Pregnancy – Part 5
Disclaimer – I briefly reference abortion in this. I am both pro-life and pro-choice. I would never condone anyone for the choice they make when they find out they are pregnant. Each person is in completely different situations and I think people need to be compassionate and empathetic about other people's circumstances whilst simultaneously minding their own business. I am currently trying to come to terms with loss. Not physical loss - [...]
My Not Pregnancy – Part 4
I had a scan this week. Just to confirm a viable pregnancy and all those things. Apparently my baby should be the size of a raspberry right now, but judging by my stomach it's surely the size of a melon...maybe that's just the pies and sausage rolls talking. It took a ridiculous amount of time [...]
My Not Pregnancy – Part 3
Honestly, truly... I am absolutely terrified...I'm not ready
My Not Pregnancy – Part 2
The nausea is real. I always thought that the day I vomited was the day that I knew I was pregnant. I don’t drink alcohol (my own personal reasons) and I rarely have stomach bugs so I haven’t vomited since I was 13 and even then it was just dry retching from blood loss (a [...]
My Not Pregnancy – Part 1
I’ve always wanted to have a family, craved my own children really, but right here in this moment I’m not ready.
Rejecting the Fear of Rejection
I want to reject my fear of rejection and shame. Similar to launching this new blog, nothing has to be perfect, and I also need to remind myself that I’m not static. My opinions may change as new information is presented to me or as I gain further life experience and that’s okay! I have no obligation to anyone to be the same person I was yesterday (within reason, like don’t be an actual a**hole).
