I did briefly wonder if it was something I had done...If things had gone to plan, as they rarely do, you would have been born into this crazy world today.
My Not Pregnancy – Part 9
Confirmed miscarriage at 12+6 weeks.
My Not Pregnancy – Part 8
My biggest hurdle during this time has been telling my Samoan grandfather. The history I have to compare it with is his reaction when my mum told him she was pregnant at the age of 21 and he proceeded to not speak with her for the entirety of the pregnancy.
My Not Pregnancy – Part 7
I think I've started experiencing baby brain. I've been doing some research and there's no specific time when it starts and it's questionable whether it's a real thing, but I'm pretty sure I've got it.
My Not Pregnancy – Part 6
I've spent the entire time feeling exhausted, and it's not just heat and the presence of my raging, party-animal family. By 11 I'm already done for the day and it's nap time - oh did I mention that was AM?
My Not Pregnancy – Part 5
I am currently trying to come to terms with loss. Not physical loss - loss of opportunities.
My Not Pregnancy – Part 4
It took a ridiculous amount of time to find a place to get my scan, which is surprising considering I am a health professional. I honestly imagined that you just rocked up to the radiology department at the hospital, patted your stomach as the universal sign of cooking a bun in the oven and they whip you through - free of charge. But no, and it's not just because of my own sheer incompetence +/- a pinch of ignorance but because it turns out when you get pregnant, you literally have do everything yourself.
My Not Pregnancy – Part 3
When I found out I was pregnant my first thought was “crap”. Honestly, truly... I am absolutely terrified...I'm not ready
My Not Pregnancy – Part 2
I didn’t actually click that it was nausea; initially describing it to my mum as starving, but when it was time to eat, I couldn't stomach looking at any of the food. Sounds kind of like nausea right?
My Not Pregnancy – Part 1
I’ve always wanted to have a family, craved my own children really, but right here in this moment I’m not ready.