I didn't really click that I could self-sabotage without realising it. It's giving main character, for the plot energy, and this was certainly not what I expected.
For if you don’t want to have children.
"I was a woman so from birth my designated role was motherhood...For the first time I have realised that I do not have to have children if I do not want to... having a choice should not be a f***ing privilege"
Paying Homage to this Past Season
So for this new season; I look forward to having a heart that is more open to love, that is no longer terrified at the thought of a relationship, a heart that looks forward to meeting someone who aligns with them on all levels, that is continually learning and growing, a heart which knows it might make mistakes, but knows that it is always willing to check itself and a heart that will always do its best. There is nothing more that I could ask of myself this season, or the next.
New Things – A Letter to Myself
I have 206 entires in my Notes app under the folder labelled "blog". They are quick jottings over the course of two years when I first shot the bullet and started blogging - an external, physical space to pour the multitudes of thoughts and musings - imperative for an over-thinker like myself. A few have [...]
Working Through Heartbreak
I was a product of what young children were exposed to - princesses aren't princesses without a prince, girls can't function without boys, women need men to feel fulfilled and complete themselves.
The Bad Parts of Heartbreak
So I've got this pit in my stomach. It won't go away. But slowly, every so slowly, I think it's getting a bit easier to breath.
Pandemics, lockdowns, breakdowns and break-ups
I'm all for holding space for others to be vulnerable and encouraging this, yet I realised I rarely let my guard down myself.
My Not Pregnancy – Part 10
I did briefly wonder if it was something I had done...If things had gone to plan, as they rarely do, you would have been born into this crazy world today.
My Not Pregnancy – Part 9
Confirmed miscarriage at 12+6 weeks.
My Not Pregnancy – Part 7
I think I've started experiencing baby brain. I've been doing some research and there's no specific time when it starts and it's questionable whether it's a real thing, but I'm pretty sure I've got it.