“To expect being in love 24/7 is a myth. If you tell me otherwise then I’ll take that as the exception to the rule and maintain a discerning suspiciousness of your perception of your relationship.”
The thing above love is that is starts with you... Singleness was never a choice for me. I desperately wanted a partnership. I still remember praying every night that someone would come into my life. He sent me lessons instead...
My second truth is that I did not have my first orgasm till I was 26 years of age...the shame attached to any relationship with my genitalia was huge...I carried this shame into my relationships
So for this new season; I look forward to having a heart that is more open to love, that is no longer terrified at the thought of a relationship, a heart that looks forward to meeting someone who aligns with them on all levels, that is continually learning and growing, a heart which knows it might make mistakes, but knows that it is always willing to check itself and a heart that will always do its best. There is nothing more that I could ask of myself this season, or the next.
Catch me reflecting It has been approximately one year since I started my journey of healing. I expected to enter a new vibration, I knew there would be a glow up - though it fucked me off when people would use that line as though to reassure me because it was super invalidating for what [...]
Confirmed miscarriage at 12+6 weeks I'd just started getting excited about my pregnancy I'd literally told my grandparents and friends two days before this day. The ED doctor said that the current foetal size was about 8 weeks. Pretty much just after my first scan. Is that when baby died? Just after I'd seen it's [...]
During the COVID-19 alert level 4 and 3 lockdown I have felt feelings of purposelessness and a lack of fulfilment I learnt how to manage my emotions by myself, and also how, sometimes, unable I am to manage them by myself too I came to realise who I can trust and how many people I [...]